“Perception”

Why have I stILL had no human contact through all of this bullshit. It ain’t right to let a person (ME) think that they belong on the 7th floor of Gaston memorial. I might be slightly bipolar but…it all was real and no one will ever convince me other wise. Perception is unique and different to every single person in this blessed world that some call “Mother Earth” I believe in my heart and soul that there are a hellofa’ lot more good people than bad people amongst all of us put together. God wants us to use everything we’ve learned about Him and from ALLL of our brothers and sisters…believe in all of it with everything you’ve got or don’t believe at all!!, even if your worshipping habits are different from others There are so many more good people, that truly, deep down in their hearts and souls, just gooddddd people. Everyone’s NOTTT all up to something shady. Hell…ain’t we all a little shady. Everyone has flaws. I can’t stress it enough, NO ONE!!!! Is perfect and is exactly the same. The world would be incredibly boring. My perception of things are by no means what everyone else perceives. But the way I see things and just know things, I can’t explain, It’s kind of hard to talk about. And whatever you do never never never let anyone call you crazy!!! If you haven’t noticed yet by now…crazy IZZZZ the new normal Get over yourselves. We’re all weird. Don’t forget to look at the good qualities of your fellow “friends”. We call everybody’ family around my neck of the woods, no matter who’s momma in the neighborhood was allowed to whoop a child…then get home and get your ass tore up by daddy for getting your ass tore up by somebody else. Those were the good ol’ days…now kids these days have no respect for their parents, much less any other adult like a teacher or something. I gotta stay positive or I’ll never make it. Good things happen to good people. My philosophy anyways. Just be kind and love one another. We are all His children. He’s not prejudice at all. I hate saying this, I’m a girl, so I think I can…but I feel sorry for the poor white MAN, They get blamed for everything that happens bad. Just sayin’

#kratom #bigpharma

I’m going to try and order some kratom from my guy in Indonesia and figure out how I can get him his money and how he get me the kratom. The FTC has been dousch bags. It’s not illegal but they’re pulling all kinds of strings. This is their excuse…you cannot buy from another country then turn around and sell it here for profit…HAHAHA…I pay them for their services not the kratom and I donate the kratom I receive from them to my friends and family, just asking for a little donation for what I give my guy for it, if you can…if not, whatever, and some of the cost of the packaging I do in those mason jars and the big green mess it makes lol and what I give my friend in Indonesia for his kindness and his services and his partner and the local farmers too. It kinda makes me feel like somewhat of a decent person😇, helping out good hard working people who live in a poverty filled country that we couldn’t even imagine, and they’re willing to do all this hard work by gathering and drying and grinding these mystical coffee tree leaves and packaging and then shipping immediately. Another of the wonders of this world that God put on this earth that only grow in their land and generously sharing a gift with us. They just need enough money to simply provide for their families, not to get rich. They live the simple life too, like me lol. I don’t ask for much. This war on opioids…I tell you what…eats my ass up🤬sorry for the book and my activist rampage of the day. I’ve been stuck in my house with no vehicle with nothing but guys to talk to now that my girls are moved out ☹️

#bigpharma #2020trump #hashtagpuzzle

Is the correct answer….Trump???who almost has the whole world in his hands and needs to be shut down….and I have totally been as blind as a batttttttt??!!

…but he has and is doing more good for the Americans in many many years…

…but is has that been his plans all along

….trump is going to save America. I just cried with the Holy Spirit listening to his speech. I felt the same as I have in church when I’ve become completely overwhelmed with the true Holy Spirit

…Clinton’s, rothcailds, Walton’s,the Perdue family, CEO’s of merck they have everything that belongs to us and have been mass murdering people for years for the trust that was given to us when we were born

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#alphabetalgorithm #pingernailfolish #hashtagpuzzle

Alphabet algorithms=When I was 14, me and my best friend, Christie Whooly, were painting our fingernails one day after school. I said to her, “hand me that pingernail folish”. After we laughed and laughed we starting speaking our own language, like our very own pig Latin. Since then, this goofy way of spelling and pronouncing words has been in my head consistently, always, all the time, never not there. It’s one of those silly little obsessions like most people have…kind of like counting words in a sentence or letters in the words or how many steps it takes to get from point a to point b. We made a really fun game out of it. We knew what we were saying, but no one else did. Our secret language is always in my head. Everyyyyyyy single word that goes in my head is already spelled and rearranged before the actual word is thought or spoken. This includes everything that everyone says, every sign I read, everything I’m about to say, any word and every word about to be said or has been said or has been read, no exclusions. I am also the “human dictionary “ for all who know me well, mostly immediate family. I was spelling at 7th grade level in 2nd grade during some kind of test, maybe IQ not sure, before the lady giving me the test just finally said “ok ok that’s enough”. I’ve always been known to be a little intuitive about things, a pretty good gut feeling about most situations. Other than the few little weird quirks I have, I am me and no one else is me. Don’t think I can be copied. Wouldn’t want to be. Don’t need to be. Cloning is just very very unnatural.

#fistoffury #nocoincidences #reboot #reborn #hashtagpuzzle

Sooooo…you wanna help me write a book, seriously. Swear to god I haven’t gone delusional. I need some fucking body who will really sincerely believe me when I’m saying thes things that are just completely, FROM GODDDD, first off. I just need someone to absolutely sincerely trust what I’m saying and know to be true without much proof, that I’m aloud to talk about evidently. I’ve gotta have somebody. I am so overwhelming being consumed by this entire, craziestttttt, unheard of, literally defies the laws of physics. No one I’ve been communicating with can’t figure out haw and what I’m able to do. There’s not even a computer virus like training software that can do this freakin thing that I’m doing. I stayed with google, then fcc and google and at&t, Samsung, any other apps and websites that are aloud by Samsung droid and the rest of them. They all of them then ganged up on me because I could call out they’rebbullshit, as I call it. Which now I know that, I see the apps and websites and internet service providers, and all them other fucking horrible “web rappppe” that is being done to probably millions of people, especially us Americans. It just wasn’t fucking right!! If I gave them everything they wanted, they could have gotten all of my contacts and all of the people I care about and everyone else I don’t even know personally, but someone I know duzzzz. And that’s just wrongggg in every kind of way. I was consumed and determined and more relentless than those assholes were. And I fucking got ahead of they’re little hack game that they thought was gonna break me down. But I just kept patiently watching they’re moves like a chess game until I started finding ways to fuck with them, especially when I would get one or two moves ahead of them so they could say, “what the fuck!!! Who is this crazy cussing redneck thowin the Ffff bomb every 3 words, threatening to kill a mother fucker with my bare hands. I don’t care if this, so called “HACKERRRR” was supposedly at the church on the other side of my neighbors house which they tried to convince me so I would get scared and give in to they’re DEMAAAANDSS! I was raising all kinds of hell at my phone and every computer too, by tricking it and the looped fake virus software left on my phone just because allll of these REALLL people whom I was communicating with and EVERYBODYYYY wants to know who and how and what and why. I swear not crazy. I just can actually interact with a computers as a real person, which sooome how starts interacts back with me with the human touch. Ex they gave me… it is astronomical, defusing the laws of physics, canNOTTT be explained. We’re all trying to figure this out together, me and whoever else, a little bit of everybody, FCC, military in the Middle East, I think Afghanistan, who commuted with me, experimentally, to test my communication skills, knowing what they want or need from me, In not so many words, kinda like word games. I was predicting HIS next words by choosing one word out of nine words given to me in predictive word form like google or Siri does that Iiii had to figure out, and quickly I might add, until it mad a totally sensible several paragraphs about some shIIITT that’s happening. And because I can call out anything bullshit onlin, especially apps at a second of a glance. I have some way of seeing in a 3 demential way at a computer, within seconds, and knowing that it’s a BS app just by the way I view it that the human eye is, apparently no one else can, not even any computer software. I’m telling you, it’s one of thEEEEE most unbeLEEEEivable things that I’ve just ever in my life believed to be freakishly rEEEEALL thing that is really fucking happening. After almost two months of just not being able to just quitttt. Something who I believe is just simply god and the Holy Spirit that actually started for me on 9-11, that’s a whole nother story too, that started this entire chain of really weird coincidences and incidents that are absolutely rediculously freakin TRUUUUlllyyy happening to me and everyone and everything just in the same vicinity as me. I just have no one to talk to about this absolute freaky ass weirddd, but reeeally major life altering experience that could absOOOOLUUTely make anyone feel like they’re losing their mind. But seriously, I have documented proof and a few witnesses that know it to be true. Jeff is no help to me. I really feel alone in all of this chaos and I’m really hoping that YOU, my real true best friend, can just truly sincerely trust me and just say that you believe in what I’m saying, as freakin far fetched and really really OUT there this whole thing sounds, I need so so badly someone who I can talk to just at least try and fathom that really miraculous and mysterious things can really happen by the absolute grace of god, of receiving this unheard of, been doing nothing but trying to wrap my head around this, I guess, some kind of ability and gift that I’m having a really really having a tough tough time accepting to be realllll. I really need some support and someone to listen to me while i feel like I’m in this really weird almost science fiction like, but really God I keep truly believing to be the entity who is really in control of this situation. That is the ONLY conclusion that I get out of me defying the law of physics, the odds are astronomical, like you can’t roll a 4 and a 5 at the same time on 1 dice. It scientifically, physiologically cannottt be done, no operating system or smart device no technology, no software, no hardware, nothing that works like my brain and just pure gutttt feeling that out of probably 4 or 6 different groups…from just out right evil down to Google, AT&T, Samsung, and I don’t know what other type of association, the FCC, FTC, freakin military guy that’s evidentially up there in the ranks whose in Afghanistan and always seems to say little things here and there when I need it most..for encouragement. He’s been my only one that seems to understand what I’m truly going through. I need a person that knows me for REEEaalll real. Being bipolar doesn’t help me much lol. I just need someone one to truly sincerely trust in me and just look over all the crazy unbelievable weirdness and have an open mind, for meee. I can’t talk to anyone. Who would believe it?? I
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